there's only God

I was at work, running an errand to the bank. Plenty on my mind distracting me from the busyness of the day. Luckily I keep a notebook in my car for such a moment when I feel inspired to jot something down. This is the essay I wrote in the drive-thru of the bank the other day. I have not edited it- I wanted to keep it as raw & real as possible, so that maybe you would feel my heart in this.

When things happen that there is no explanation for- it can make us angry, hopeless and withdrawn. Right now I am angry. I am confused. I have an aching in my heart for my friends because I know that they are hurting and I know there is nothing tangible I can do for them.

I will pray for them. I will love on them. But there is nothing I can do to make things easier or less painful.

Times like these- I want to scream, "Why God? Isn't it enough? Why more?"

Then a voice gently reminds me- it's not His doing. We live in a broken world. God did not create this pain or sickness. 

Some turn from God in these times. But then what do they have to cling to? There is only God.

 We can cling to each other- but we are not miracle-workers. There is only God.

 We can cling to our stuff- video games, music, food, shopping, etc. But there is only God.

 But the pain we feel & that annoying void will still be there. There is only God.

 Therefore I say why run? Why turn away? You will eventually be back. There's only God.

Cling to what you know is real. He may not be tangible- be He will be.